As I look back over my life I am amazed at how far God has taken me and everything that He has brought me through. Today I have a music ministry creating music for the One who has created me. I’ve released two records, had the opportunity to minister to many people locally and nationally-from the lost coming for a rock concert in Hollywood clubs, to the worship lovers in churches and the spiritually curious at outreaches, as well as the broken and addicted looking for the hope I was once desperate to find, and I am very excited for what 2013 holds.
On February 19th I will be sober for 7 years having successfully completed the Christian life school Teen Challenge as well as Teen Challenge Ministry Institute, a Bible College equipping graduates for hands-on ministry. The best part? My mother, Rose, has also successfully completed these endeavors and also approaches her 7-year sobriety mark. Today we both have each other, our God, sobriety and more than that, purpose.
Through the years that seem to have flown by, there were times when emotion weighed heavily on our hearts. Questioning our mutual sobriety and wondering if it would last. Past hurts returning to render us undone. All along the journey there was threatening silence that found us, alone, in our insecurities… Could we forgive? Could we forgive each other? Could we forgive ourselves?
These daunting questions begged for reckoning but with me in the Men’s home in Riverside and Rose in the women’s home in Ventura, strict schedules and limited phone time, the pressing circumstances didn’t afford us the opportunity to share and heal.
In the brief moments we shared on those short long-distance calls when time was never enough, when I missed the comfort of family and could only speak with Mom on the phone, I would tell her that all she had to do was look up to the stars on “Miracle Mountain” in Ventura, and know I wasn’t that far away looking at the same stars. Years later I would write a song called Stars to capture that emotion, and though it has the God-creation meaning, the obvious romantic interpretation, and several others, I wanted to share parts of this song-writing process with you, the ones called life, loss, and Love.
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